Siddhartha is an absolutely profound book. It tells us how different people go through the journey of life which are absolutely distinct and unlike each other. There is a person who lives through his own experiences and learns, through each joy and each pain that life has to offer. The other lives life by the principles given to him by someone else. A life that promises that if they live by those principles, they will not have any suffering in life. And these two people crossroads at various points in life and exchange experiences.
While reading Siddhartha, I tried to map these two ways of living. I found myself stuck between the two extremes. I want to live my life with my independence and my experiences. All my beliefs come from my very own experiences. These at times, have come my way and some which I have gone ahead and grabbed. At the same time, my conditioning from my growing up days is grounded in all the value systems that I inherited from the social system around me.
There are lots of times when I have to let go of experiences coming my way for my value system. There are so many ‘shoulds’ that are deeply engraved in my mind. And any deviation from these ‘shoulds’ is an aberration and hence leaves a sense of guilt. And at times it’s just the fear of guilt which holds me back. I have broken away from lots of that conditioning and learned to listen to my heart and told my mind to ‘Shut UP’. I can continue living with my heart without any of the conditioning, and call myself totally free, only when a lot of cobwebs are cleared.
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